Wednesday, 21 January 2015

Coming around again

Mornings keep happening with reassuring regularity, don't they?!

The YFG is making good progress, although she has a big bruise around her tummy button where one of the wounds is. She's been having a lie in most mornings and then getting up and watching a little tv, before doing her school work.  The maths has been completed, the history is half way there, and the geography was on the table last night, looking at the impact of the growth of mobile phone technology on the population of China.....

I am definitely having another wobble about the job, which is a disappointment as I thought I had got into the swing of it.  I am still concentrating hard on being grateful for the opportunity but actually, some of the time, I can hear the FH telling me that life is too short to be bogged down like this, and that I do not "need" the money that badly.  Since I started the job in September, if I give notice before the same time in March, I have to lose two week's wages in respect of the time I was paid whilst I was being trained, according to the contract, so I will be sticking it out until March, unless they sack me first!  With the two week's notice I have to give, I could be out of it in ten weeks.  That gives me some comfort, knowing that if I don't get better at it, and get back into managing it, instead of dreading it, there are a limited number of days left that I have to do!  At the moment, I feel that it is affecting my health, as I find myself clenching my teeth a lot, and feeling jittery.....not good.

UJ will be here today, a comforting and solid presence in our lives. He's going to help me clean out the chooks this afternoon, since I need a helping hand to hold up the lid of one of the chook houses whilst I shovel the you-know-what!   He enjoys his afternoons sitting by the wood burner once he has done a little work in the shed, chopping the wood for the kindling for me - he has definitely earned a rest after being out there, working up a sweat over the saw each week as he has been doing.  I wouldn't be able to do it without chopping off a finger or two, I'm afraid, so I am glad of his help!

Well, off now to let out the chooks in the rain, and see if they are going to be in the mood to start laying some eggs again soon - the YFG had me making chocolate brownie for her the other night, so if that is going to be on her recuperation menu, I need more eggs!!

6 comments:

SusanM said...

You are a wonderful mother and friend. This paid job is only one small part of your life, and is only one of the many jobs you do. And you're absolutely brilliant at your other jobs! You have fantastic support both from family and community. You've had a lot to deal with recently and I think you've done really well to even think about taking on this job. You will make the right decision. As life moves on, there will be other opportunities for you. Take care x

veeknits19 said...

So glad to hear YFG is recuperating, and managing to fit in school work - what a pity it can't wait these days! Sorry to hear the job isn't working out, I think it's a positive to be able to see an end to it, it puts it into perspective as a means to an end, rather than an end in itself. Take good care of yourself, Vee xx

Lyssa Medana said...

Hope YFG is feeling better soon. Take care of yourself as well. Hugs WS xxx

Mindo said...

I think that if you are not enjoying the job when March comes around you have definitely given it a good go!

Angela said...

Best wishes to YFG - so glad UJ is there to be a support. Ten weeks will go by very quickly, and by March you will be sure one way or the other about keeping it or chucking it in. Blessings and hugs xx

rabbitquilter said...

Hope the chicken cleaning was successful and none of you froze!! Chilly here! I am sorry your job is not a success, but to be honest no job is worth jeopardising your health for. Take care of yourselves! XX