Monday, 13 February 2012

I spend money when I'm....

I spend money more when I am angry! I feel hard done by tonight, as I wanted to watch the BBC programme about the Queen which Andrew Marr has made. It is a three part programme and this is week 2.

I missed it last week as the FH was watching a programme about soldiers in Afghanistan, which the girls didn't want to watch, so they were in my bed watching something else on that tv. Exactly the same scenario has developed tonight.

The options which would enable me to watch that programme about the Queen would all cost me money. I could install BTVision, so I could record it; I could upgrade my internet package so that I could watch it on iPlayer without exceeding my monthly limit; I could buy it on DVD; I could buy another TV!!

I am cross that I feel like my choices are the least important, and that makes me feel like spending money to make me feel more important. BUT I won't, because although that would help me win the battle, I wouldn't win the war. The war is on spending unnecessarily, and all of those options are unnecessary, so instead, I need to work on my feelings. Easier said than done.

5 comments:

Wannabe Sybil said...

It's the feeling of not being important enough for your choices to be valued that stings, much more than missing a programme. Hugs. I know that you are invaluable. The programme will probably be on again on eg BBC3 or 4, fingers crossed. That does not address the crossness, but at least you can be sure you are keeping your eye on the ball despite everything. They are lucky to have you. Hugs again WS xxx

saving for travel said...

I think you are wonderful for resisting the temptation.

Sft x

Trudie said...

Don't worry - knowing the BBC it'll be repeated at least half a dozen times and then you'll hopefully get chance to watch it

Put your foot down next time that it's on and refuse to do the ironing, if they won't let you watch it! - that may do the trick!!! Take care xx

Scarlet said...

Do your family know that you feel like that? I used to do the same - put myself last and then feel annoyed about it. I started speaking out. Not in an angry way , but in a quietly assertive way- it worked for me.They hadn't even realised I felt that way. As an alternative have you tried freecycle to get a spare TV? It may not be the latest up to the minute model but it would be watchable. My daughter got an old one from there for her fiance to play his computer games on so that she could still watch TV.

Morgan said...

I was looking at Freecycle only yesterday as a means of freeing up some of our stuff to bless other people's needs, but I hadn't thought of looking on there for a new tv! I haven't managed to sign up yet, so will make that something to do today. Thanks for the suggestion, Scarlet.x